As a Black we are always taught to shield our spirits in times of sudden misfortune. I haven’t this time. I feel this in the deepest level now. After what happened the other day I’ve tried to accept the fact that my actions have consequences. I’ve learn this, I’ve learned how my poor judgment and choosing side against my own blood can cause a magnitude of harm. I’ve tried to reflect on everything that I’ve learned from you over the years. You where the one to teach me to speak my truth quietly and clearly while listening to others as humble as it be. Well here is my truth, I know I wouldn’t feel lost in a pool of guilt if I didn’t hold any sort of feelings for you in my heart. I’m sorry for holding my tongue and not speaking clearly. Please except my apology, if not I’ll still love you regardless.